#this is why i hate it when people criticize sam for what he did in s4  #as if dean wouldn’t have done the same or worse  #as if dean hasn’t done worse already  #as if sam did any of it for his own benefit  #sam spends all of s3 watching his brother die before his eyes  #he spends an entire year thinking  #dean is gonna die dean is gonna die  #dean is gonna die because of me  #and people wonder why sam went off the deep end  #he would have done far far worse to get dean back  #and dean should’ve known better than to think otherwise  #he couldn’t go a single day without sam before throwing away his soul  #sam had to dig a grave with his own hands and dress dean in clean clothes and bury him  #and then he had to keep on going without dean for months  #you think about that  #you think about that the next time you wonder why sam was so desperate to believe a demon  #when she said the things that dean would say and told him sam could make a difference 

Okay, why are there 5 follow forevers in my tag? Random FF trend today or something? What is going on aksjdhad Pardon me while I reblog all of them

The little tongue thing he does while dragging his hand over Sam’s chest I just aljkfh

we take it for granted that we’ll be the same

but we’re making all the same mistakes

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Set after (with spoilers for) 7x15: “Repo Man”, references to 5x11: “Sam, Interrupted.” Some pre-series, headcanon-y stuff.  Gen-fic.  Written on the fly, stream-of-consciousness style like this story and this one.

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Then.

“You have got to be kiddin’ me,” Dean yelled into the phone he’d found in the empty, unguarded office down the hall.  “Have you seen these places?  Just leave and get over here.”

Dad’s voice came through loud and clear.  Dean had the same spinal reflex to it he always did.  “I’m not leaving this hunt, Dean.  It’ll only be a few more days.”

“What am I supposed to do?” His voice came out higher than he wanted, not like the person he thought he was at all.  “They’ve got Sam.”

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