Anonymous inquired:

Aw Sashi are you shy? But you always seem fine talking with everyone

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I’m suuuuuUUUuuuUUUper shy omg. I’ve been close with my bff for YEARS and I still struggle with trying to make eye contact or starting a conversation. I’m terrified of making phone calls, I usually have to have someone in the room with me when I see a doctor because I’m too nervous to speak up about anything, and I just never ever try to meet new people. I mean, I’m better than I used to be, I can handle myself in social situations now without wanting to pass out or vomit, but I still avoid them if I can. 

But talking with you guys is different. Here, I can double check what I’m saying before I actually say it. In the real world, I have a slight stutter [something I went to speech therapy for as a kid but it still likes to show up and make me fumble over my words a lot], I’m incredibly self-conscious, and I constantly worry about saying the right thing. But on here, I can be relaxed and slightly detached from it all. Because even if you guys know me, know what I look like, and know how to get a hold of me, there’s still a barrier between us that lets me hide my totally lame social ineptitude.

And that’s one of the things I really love about tumblr, because a lot of the people here have similar issues. Crippling social awkwardness, anxieties, phobias, etc etc. This is like a safe middle ground for us where we can still have our full, rich social lives with people we share common interests with, but can protect ourselves from our own short-comings. We know that these are things we need to conquer to proceed as productive members of society which only make us more stressed and anxious, but here on tumblr we can relax for a bit.

♥ 35 — 1 year ago on 15 Jan 2013
  1. sariana89 said: oh my god… i was just thinking about this today and how i couldnt talk to my local friends and family on facebook about my life situation and how i hold everyone at arms length… but then on tumblr im so OPEN. wow… i feel ya.
  2. treeclimber1031 said: HAHAHA I RUIED YOUR SOCIAL SKILLZ….W00T OLDER SIBLING XD
  3. arseofboe said: I have the same social issues. Last year, when I turned 30 I finally said “enough”. I’m now taking anxiety medication and whilst I still have that nagging voice in my head telling me I’m gonna say/do something dumb, I no longer need to listen to it
  4. monsterquill said: This yes
  5. roonilwaazlib said: awww I just want to hug you ;—-;
  6. ecelecticmeow said: Very true though
  7. cocksucker3000 said: dude. yes.
  8. kazuos said: you’re so presh omg i love you
  9. jenngeek said: Group hug?
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