Am I allowed to gush at you all again? Am I? When do I cross the line from being grateful and being obnoxious? Or worse, gloating?

Because I was just talking to my dear sweet friend Sophie about how, even though I’m having another tough day physically right now, it is IMPOSSIBLE to be down. I, for the first time in sooo many years, actually have a future in my line of sight. I dropped out of college a few years back because of this, I haven’t been able to work. I’ve been a useless bum for so long because of my health and I never really assumed I would live for all that much longer. But now, thanks to everyone and your beautiful fucking hearts, my life is so close I can almost touch it. For quite awhile I stopped making future plans in my head - no “when I get old” plans or “within a few years” goals - because I had this mysterious crippling pain that no doctor believed and so I couldn’t see myself having a future. But now I’m already thinking if I should go back to school, and what I would study if I did, or what kind of job to get when I can work again, what career path would I like to go down.

I don’t want to be over-dramatic. Soooooooooo many people have it way worse than I do and I’m not going to sit here and moan and groan about how shitty life is, because fuck! Life is AMAZING! I mean, look what just happened! It’s been three days and my life has done a complete 180 and you all pulled me up out of the mud. 

Okay, I really am just rambling at this point. I just want to express how truly, truly, truly grateful I am to everyone. And not just for the funding [of COURSE I’m grateful for that], but also for the plethora of women coming to me and telling me their stories, and everyone that offered doctors’ numbers and social workers’ numbers and hospital numbers… My mind is just blown by how, despite all the ugliness in the world, so many people just want to help, even though I’m a complete stranger that could be lying for all they know. Yeah, I could be a scam, but literally thousands of people would rather lose a few bucks trying to help someone than let them continue suffering. And that is just something truly beautiful. And that’s why I will never fully lose faith in mankind, because underneath it all, we want to have faith in our fellow humans, we want to be able to offer a helping hand or say a few kind words, we care enough to rally together for even something as small as helping me get surgery. When mankind works together, there is nothing we can’t accomplish. And I am truly blessed and forever grateful that mankind rallied together for me.

I just.. Yeah. Thank you.